Sold Out

*everything I am stating has to do with my personal journey with God and has nothing to do with company or groups spoken of*

This is something I have been wanting to write all summer. I had to do some things first, though. Things like pull myself away from where God did not want me.


I’m not sure if you knew, but I was a Mary Kay consultant. For approximately five-ish months. I was ready to show women their true beauty and you could do that in Mary Kay; because we put GOD FIRST. Stop right there. God first. I remember that being a flashing light (kinda like those neon wall decor lights) when I first got to hear more about the company.

Let’s move to the second thing. I was also a content writer for a group, for a short time. I’m not going to give the name, cause there’s really no reason to. I remember before I submitted my application I was going through some of the peoples social medias, that were already apart of the group. One of my first thoughts was that I would get the chance to connect myself with girls my age, whom I could stand beside and create things for other people to learn from.

But do you ever feel like you are on the outside looking in? That you can see how good it is to be apart of something that is clearly pretty amazing!? I felt that in two different forms. Those two different forms are what my life will be all about. What I am giving my life too. Helping women and girls just like me see their own potential within the world. We don’t have to do it like everyone else. We are unique in Gods image and we should never forget it. We are worth so much more than what we think.

WE ARE BEAUTIFUL! You better believe it, we don’t have to live up to anyone’s standards. You don’t have to put up with those people who are not good for you.

(I was truly in a moment while writing this, haha. So if you don’t understand, which I’m sure you don’t.. what I mean is that I want to show women that they truly are beautiful through the content I create. Mary Kay was the beauty part. Content writer was obviously the content part lol)

What happened was that I was trying to fit where I wasn’t supposed to. I was quite literally, the puzzle piece that didn’t fit. That was no ones fault at all!! I understand that now. I was simply not supposed to fit.


What was happening was that I was fearing what would happened if I stepped out on my own. But God says have no fear, NONE. He is with us and He will guide in the direction we are supposed to go.

I thought Mary Kay was it because I wanted to be a consultant for a company for sooo long and they had the same values I had. To put God first! Before our family and career. Jesus tells me “yes, that’s exactly what I want for you to do. But not for them, for me.” I can’t tell you that I fully understand that, because I don’t at all! (I literally can not explain this for you. I sat and thought for a couple minutes and nothing came to me. But then I remembered that were not going to fully grasp everything from the Lord. Because He is goes deeper than we can imagine. Maybe that statement was for someone else.)

Being a content writer for the group meant that people wouldn’t be only looking at my work and my creations, but other people’s too.

I marveled at the fact that if I messed up I’d be able to fall back onto the cushion of other people. It wasn’t all me, it that makes sense.

In all of this God wanted me to step out on faith, trust Him! He wanted me to be sold out for Him. The same way I was ready to give myself to those two forms I needed to give myself to God. I had to accept what He was promising me. (and right now at 1:17 am, on July 28th. I am accepting it) This is a milestone moment for me, honestly. If you’re willing I want to take you on this crazy ride called life with me.

God has shown me that as long as I follow Him, He will give me exactly what I ask for, what I need, and what He has promised me.

He wants to do the same for you also! Are you ready to step out on faith and pursue what Jesus has called you to do. You don’t need that cushion, whatever it is you are resting on. I believe in you and guess what. So does Jesus. He loves you and cares for your well being. He won’t let you fall (too far) the crazy thing is, He’s gonna pick you back up and make you better than before. Don’t wait on tomorrow. Accept whatever Jesus has for you right now.

I pray that each of us get to experience a joy so unimaginable. One that moves us like never before, because Jesus has promised a life more than we could ever imagine.
All I can say as I finish this is wow.

I want to help you reach whatever goals you have for yourself! If there is somewhere God is pushing you, I want to help you get there! So if you want to talk my social medias are linked right below!!

11 I know the plans I have in mind for you, declares the Lord; they are plans for peace, not disaster, to give you a future filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11 Common English Bible (CEB)

Have a great Friday!!

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3 Comments

  1. I loved this post! I felt like it was something I needed to hear. And the idea of being “sold out” for God is something I’ve never thought about in that way before but it such a good way of putting it!

    1. Girl I literally got the inspiration to write it in the middle of the night.. and ended up typing up it all on my phone🙃😂 it’s definitely something I had to come to terms with myself. Honestly I’m just glad you could grasp everything☺️ I felt like I was all over the place.

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